Just finished Sylvia Plath's "The Bell Jar," which I've thoroughly lived in, underlined, and dog eared over the past two weeks. Below, one of many such lived in, underlined, and dog eared passages that resonated with me.

"A bad dream.
I remembered everything.
I remembered the cadavers and Doreen and the story of the fig tree and Marco's diamond and the sailor on the Common and Doctor Gordon's wall-eyed nurse and the broken thermometers and the Negro with his two kinds of beans and the twenty pounds I gained on insulin and the rock that bulged between the sky and sea like a gray skull.
Maybe forgetfulness, like a kind of snow, should number and cover them.
But they were part of me. They were my landscape."

Sylvia Plath
"The Bell Jar"

your friday pick me up

this is a great example of how a video can enhance a song. i heard -- and liked -- the song before, but i admit, i didnt truly appreciate the crazy, frenetic energy of the song until i peeped this video.

Gnarls Barkley
"Going On"

muxtape thursdays V.02

you're making me high: songs for addicts


happy listening!

good morning!

The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you; Don't go back to sleep. You must ask for what you really want; Don't go back to sleep. People are going back and forth across the doorsill where the two worlds touch. The door is round and open. Don't go back to sleep.

Rumi

happy birthday cathy!

Alright, so in Vietnam I'm a day late....but I'm pretty sure that I'm still on time in Hawaii...or at the very least, I KNOW I'm on time in North Carolina, which is where we met, so it's all good, right?

Anywho, I know I still havent sent you your Vietnam goodies yet. I know I haven't heard your voice in...has it been almost a year now? I know I'm missing out on all your grand plans, your wonderful dreams, and your effervescent approach to day to day living. I know, full well, that there are few people in this world like you -- so raw in their goodness, in their desire to make the world a better place for having been in it. I hope you know that, you've made my little life all the better for being in it. Have a happy happy birthday!

will be on vacay until sunday...

peace peace

"a spoonful of sugar"

just got on muxtape, which i aim to update weekly/bi-weekly. we'll see how she flies :)


muxtape numero uno is my "spoonful of sugar" mix -- made with bad days & breakups in mind, they're songs to ride it out with (this is actually version 2 of the mix, because i had a few m4a files, which, unfortunately, cannot be downloaded onto muxtape). enjoy~

humbling thought #1

"And when you look at the sky you know you are looking at stars which are hundreds and thousands of light-years away from you. And some of the stars don't even exist anymore because their light has taken so long to get to us that they are already dead, or they have exploded and collapsed into red dwarfs. And that makes you seem very small, and if you have difficult things in your life it is nice to think that they are what is called negligible, which means that they are so small you don't have to take them into account when you are calculating something."

"The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time"
Mark Haddon

like candyland for nerds

gaetano: remember in the movie BIG with tom hanks when he gets his paycheck and buys a loft and fills is with pin ball machines and other stuff?

me: did you do that?

gaetano: not yet
but that's what google's office complex is like

me: dude...really???
wow

gaetano: yeah it's retarded how much money they have

gaetano: free smoothies at the entrance of every building.

me: FWAH?!

gaetano: yeah man
they have 16 gourmet restaurants across the campus
all of them free

me: you're just making shit up now

gaetano: no i'm not
they have a circus tent
and an 18 hole golf course
a gym with personal trainers
and a lap pool
all free
and you can bring your dog to work

me: i feel like this is the workplace you design when you're 8 years old and the teacher asks you what kind of place you could imagine working in

me: like, its candyland for nerds

gaetano: hahaha it is
they have a t-rex in the courtyard

for father's day

"...almost redeemed by what he tried to say...."

yosef komunyakaa reading "my father's love letters."

drive green

the life of women

i'm at this point where i want to reread old, favorite stories rather than explore new ones. i just finished arundhati roy's "The God of Small Things" again, enoying it perhaps more this time than the previous. next on the list, a book i've had a real hankering for re-reading, is zora neale hurston's "Their Eyes Were Watching God"....if only just to extend the *favorite books with "God" in the title* streak.

"Ships at a distance have every man's wish on board. For some they come in with the tide. For others they sail forever on the horizon, never out of sight, never landing, until the Watcher turns his eyes away in resignation, his dreams mocked to death by Time. That is the life of men. Now, women forget all those things they don't want to remember, and remember everything they don't want to forget. The dream is the truth. They then act and do things accordingly."

Zora Neale Hurston
"Their Eyes Were Watching God"

if i knew then what i know now...

"Do not do what you would undo if caught."

Leah Arendt

much more & a myriad of this

been MIA the past week due to travel & work

its been (fucking) fantastic to be away, but i'm glad to be back too.

anywho, here's something to lift up the monday spirits....